I promised myself that I would be as real and honest about everything when I started this blog. I’ve posted things from DIY to funny life stories. Diversity is important and also letting others know they aren’t alone when going thru things.
I was driving home last night and felt the weight of the world falling upon me. It’s an overwhelming feeling to say the least. Don’t get me wrong, I’m loving our married life. We have an amazing relationship and enjoy everything that we have. On the flip side, I’ve been feeling overloaded.
First off, I’m not a huge fan of change. So Friday, my boss comes in and tells me I’m was being transferred to another neighborhood. Not as a punishment, but because we are slowing down and the other guy needs help. Not to forget the fact that I’ve had 2 extremely difficult buyers I’ve been dealing with and getting no management support at all. He waited until they closed before moving me.
It’s not something I was really happy about. I thought about it all weekend. It didn’t get any better on Monday after I packed my office up and drove to the new office. This new place was smaller than my old one. It was overloaded with spare crap. I didn’t get anything unpacked and got thrown right in to checking houses, which I won’t make any bonus on.
I know it sounds petty, but it made me realize that I struggle with finding happiness with a lot of things I do. My job is stressful and financially unfulfilling. Which leads me to being stressed even more. It’s also more than depressing to drop your daughter off at school knowing you have to wait 2 weeks to have any lengthy time with her. Sure, every Wednesday is nice, but not nearly enough time if you ask me. It’s worse when she cries every single time I drop her off.
There are a few other factors that have been thrown at us that are weighing on me too. All-in-all, I’m tired. I’m tired of having to fight thru things like this. I’m tired of feeling overwhelmed. They say that the struggles will end and you will only look back to appreciate all the good things that have happened, but I’ve been on this road for too long and can’t see the light. It just seems to far out of reach.